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Liebster Award!

Okay so I’ve been nominated by http://imjustadreamur.wordpress.com/ for the Liebster Award for the first time though and thank you SO MUCH for that! 🙂 I’m extremely sorry it’s TOO late though.

I’m assuming there are the rules:

  1. Post the award on your blog.
  2. Thank the blogger who presented this award and link back to their blog.
  3. Write 11 random facts about yourself.
  4. Nominate 11 bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 200 followers.
  5. Answer 11 questions posted by the presenter and ask your nominees 11 questions.

I’ve technically done 1. and 2. but continuing 2. thank you a lot for nominating me and recognizing my work here! It means a lot to me that someone or anyone takes the time to read my stuff. A thing or two to say bout you, would be that your work is impeccable! It’s so good, simple and natural. Whoever reads this should take their time out to read her out. TBH, it’s worth it.

Okay so now we go to point 3. 11 facts about me? Well there are more than 11 but nevertheless haha!

11 FACTS BOUT MOI

1. I’m a phone addict. I absolutely love my phone. It’s a BlackBerry at present but whatever I do, I should have my phone in my hand at all times. When I’m eating, studying, reading, listening to someone else talk or be it whatever.

2. I’m a very curious person, The minute I hear some news or gossip, I long to know it ASAP. I try out new things just cause everyone’s doing it and then I may move on to some other new thing. So yeah ..

3. I hate falling in to trouble for anything. I love doing shitty stuff but I get a lot of tension when I’m about to get caught. The fear of facing someone screaming at me and stuff literally kills me. This is pretty weird but yeah.

4. I over-think to any extent. I can really waste my entire time thinking what would happen tomorrow and can be immediately be sad about it. The thing may never be possible but it’s already occurred in my brain. Yes.

5. I want to travel to lots of places. I want to see the world. It’s my ultimate dream. I LOVE exploring but that’s not something my parents would let me do. I’ve been to two states in my country (India) illegally without them knowing, so you can imagine how daring I can get just to explore different places hahaha!

6. I under-estimate myself a lot. I feel I cant be better at anything and that I have no skills or qualities. I always wished to be any one else before but I’m getting better at loving who I am and at understanding that to be yourself is the best.

7. I LOVE MUSIC. I can listen to music at any time and any place. Even while studying and concentrating. It calms me down. I don’t have specific genres. I can listen to anything that soothes my mood.

8. I get the worst dreams ever. Seriously. Blood, death, rapes, kidnappings. I freak myself out when I wake up. I wish I knew why I got such dreams but well, it’s a dream.

9. I have issues in saying no to people. I’m always the person who’d do anything for anyone. It’s like the biggest struggle for me. I’m a yes person.

10. I cant express love to my parents. It’s weird. I have quite an amount of Ego & it’s also cause I’m an adopted kid. I can’t really hug them or tell them that I love them. It feels weird. Don’t take me the wrong way, I love them a lot, they know it, but I don’t find it necessary to tell them every other day.

11. I wish to get published on Wikipedia or become famous fr at least a day. I really want that feel for like a while that people know my name and know me cause of something or for something.

OKAY! So finally done with my 11 facts. I could rant more cause I Rant. (geddit?) Hopefully few points do make sense?

So here goes point 4. I’d like to nominate these below mentioned 10 (cause I’m not that famous yet :$) people/bloggers for this award because they’re exceptionally AMAZING and all my readers should seriously check them out.

1. http://youngandtwenty.com/

2. http://writtenobsession.wordpress.com/

3. http://thefickleheartbeat.com/

4. http://imjustadreamur.wordpress.com/

5. http://naomiannbaker.wordpress.com/

6. http://findingjoyindarkness.wordpress.com/

7. http://howtovomitpolitely.wordpress.com/

8. http://edenburnin.wordpress.com/

The next 2 are few of my followers whose blogs I’ve recently read and want all my readers/followers to check out cause they’re a bunch of awesome writers too honestly! 🙂

9. http://jadiebeauty.wordpress.com/

10. http://bullshitwiki.wordpress.com/

Now on to point 5. where I’ll be answering the questions presented to me 🙂

  1. Do you have a middle name? State it. – No I don’t.
  2. Favorite drink and why. – Too many but I choose Mountain Dew cause it’s Neon Green LEL.
  3. Coke or pepsi. – Coke Zero!
  4. If you could change your name what would it be? – Shaista.
  5. Favorite social media site. – Facebook/Twitter.
  6. Least favorite day of the week. – Monday urgh.
  7. Favorite tv show right now. – GREY’s ANATOMY. <333
  8. Favorite person in the world. – I guess my 2 best friends.
  9. When you were a child did you leave Santa milk and cookies? – No, my religion (Hinduism) doesn’t believe in Santa. 😥
  10. Religious? – Kinda yes.
  11. Honest opinion on dandelions. – They’re fluffy and cute and I’ve never seen a real one though.

Here go my 11 questions for those whom I’ve nominated:

1. Full name even if it’s weird?

2. Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it?

3. Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set?

4. What’s your most favourite part of your body?

5. If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be?

6. Do you pick at scabs?

7. A relationship with love or one with sex?

8. If you could change your natural hair colour, would you? To what?

9. What is the meanest thing that you have done in your life?

10. What’s your wildest fantasy?

11. Have you ever peed in a pool?

That’s all I guess but make sure you do it!

Thank you and I love you guys 🙂

 

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Shock.

 

If anyone’s been following my blog, you’ll all know that I’m single & in the recovering phase from my last break up.

Basically, this article is about the ‘shock’ I received at 2AM in the morning & I actually don’t know whether that shock makes me stronger or pulls me more into depression.

This break up had already caused a lot of emotional damage but writing, talking to my friends and praying about it helped me a lot in coping up. If you read “Them Feels” and “Waiting” you’ll understand a lot more about my ex.
He chose not to respond or talk to me after he had dumped me & hung me on a thin thread or rather he threw me off a cliff. I was confused and depressed for a long time & here and there the little things around me struggled to keep me sane.

While talking to his best-friend last night, he suddenly mentioned my ex’s girlfriend. My mind was at a whirlpool that second. Girlfriend? What? Where? How? What did I miss?
And I recall exactly a week back when he mentioned to his best-friend that he missed ME, who in turn mentioned it to me.

So there you have it, he had a girlfriend right after 2 months of breaking up with me.
I think I broke down for the next 5 minutes. Just 5 minutes at 2AM. There were hours wasted on him with my tears previously but last night it was just 5 minutes. The good person I thought he was, vanished from my mind. All my confusion about the situation seemed crystal clear. I knew what I had to do. I couldn’t dwell any more on his topic. I instantly knew I had to get a grip and move on. All this while I’d wasted time that waits for none on someone who was already happily ever after dating someone else.

I don’t know whether to regret all the times I’ve prayed for his good health and happiness or to still think “oh I’m the nice girl who cares”. I don’t know whether to regret all the times I’ve wasted my time & patience on him. I don’t know.
The almost 5 months spent with him were bliss & now it feels like I’ve got sucked into a black hole after he left. Love is kind, love is happiness but love is pain. That searing pain right through your heart. That is love.

Of course, I reiterate the fact; Never expect anything from anyone, but I still couldn’t give up completely on the part that he wouldn’t come back. I thought he’d message me once.

To be honest, I felt like crap only for those 5 minutes and again when I woke up this morning. I’m at least glad I woke up. The distant picture of his face washed over my mind as I walked myself to the wash room. The thought that he’d found someone else when the last thing he’d told me was he always loved me and he’d call me one day. I felt eerily strange and resumed my daily activities not giving a care.

I survived the shock I received last night. I’m happy I didn’t react how I usually did to such things. I’m happy I woke up fine today. I’m happy to know I still have a few good people who care about me. I’m happy I didn’t lose my temper & I’m still sane. This shock actually gave me a chance to stand up. Today I didn’t bother shedding a tear. I chose to be happy.

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Eid Mubarak!

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So its Eid finally! The holy month of Ramadan has finally ended & hopefully the world suffering also ends soon with it.

I’ve spent most of my Eid’s in Dubai (Middle East) where it’s their biggest festival of all times! 16 years of spending Eid there & now in India; there’s a huge difference in the way people celebrate in both places. UAE’s a small country. Not that small, don’t take me wrong but compared to a huge country like India? Yes.

In Dubai, Eid was so beautiful. The holidays, the half days at school, iftaar parties, applying henna on your hands, shopping, sales & so on. The whole month, you couldn’t eat outside until Iftaar i.e. 6/6:30pm.

The 3 day holiday was the best part! All the malls and roads were beautifully lighted for this auspicious festival & everyone would greet each other saying “Eid Mubarak”.
In India, there is a large population of Muslims but you don’t see shops being closed till 6 in the evening cause the place is so diverse.
Dubai is diverse too but their Government is a Monarchy & India has a Democratic Government.

I miss getting boxes of sweets and greeting cards from Dad’s office colleagues who were all mostly Muslims. I miss roaming around and buying new clothes in the decorated malls. I miss going and sitting inside half-shut restaurants & wait to get my takeaway. I miss waking up at 4 cause of the early morning prayer at the Masjid. I miss having fun with my Muslim friends cause they used to get “Eidi” & treat all their friends. I miss the local food during Ramadan and Eid.
I basically miss a lot of things back home.

Being in India, honestly doesn’t feel like Eid at all. Its the same monotonous routine around me. At few places yes restaurants are lighted up, traditional food is being served, mosques and masjid’s being decorated, etc.

Ramadan is a beautiful and holy month where every Muslim man or woman, fast from sunrise till sunset. It is a time to purify the soul, refocus their attention on Allah, practice self-sacrifice, etc but it’s more than that. It is a month of forgiveness. They make peace with those who have wronged them, strengthen their ties with family and friends, leave their bad habits and cleanse their lives, thoughts and feelings for an entire month  from impurities and re-focus one’s self on the worship of God. The Arabic word for “fasting” (sawm) means “to refrain” and it means not only refraining from food and drinks, but also from evil actions, thoughts and words. Fasting is not only a physical thing, but is the total commitment of the person’s body and soul to the spirit of the fast.

I hope everyone’s had a good month of Ramadan, specially all my Muslim friends. Wish all of you a blessed Eid Mubarak ❤ Hope Allah grants you and your familiy with bundles of joy & happiness. Please don’t forget to put in a prayer along with yours for those who have suffered in this holy month of Ramadan. May their souls rest in peace.
Otherwise, have a great & happy holiday everyone!